hmmmm...well...right after 7 months we broke up..
he finally contact me back..
in msn ler..
talking sweetly to me..
telling me back  those memories..
on dat moment..
all im doin was be cautious to wad he is saying..
im scared dat i would fall for for him again...-.-
lol..
all these days..seeing u online in fb or in msn..
i always wanted to approach u and said..hey hi! how r u?
lol..but i do not has d courage to do so..dun noe y..
hmm..i really wanna noe..till now..
do u still hv dat feeling to me?
or am i ady died in ur heart??
well...to me: i believe dat i still hv dat small little space in ur heart..♥

backstabbers..

seriously hate it..

i noe hu she is..maybe??

but..i kept quiet..cz i noe it will make our friendship worsen..

backstab me for wad?? it was like a once upon a time eh stuff btw me n him..

i believe dat she seriously hate me too..lol

watever..just forget bout it..i appreciate wad i have back now..

went to ATAWOO thai restaurant..=p

hmmmm....yummy neh..~srrupps

u asked me how am i..plus haha afterdat..♥

well..im so glad to see dat..=)

..........

i get shocked ..when u said..do u noe dat ur blog did affect me alot..

u telling me ur gf hate it..

so wad?? she dun hv fb..its ur fren showing her bout my stuff..lol..

not i purposely go find her and begging her to read about my blog..duh..

its my blog..my stuff..

i dun hv anyone to talk bout my feelings..

cant u just gv me a space for me expressing wad  i wanna say??

i apologized for dat aneway..

yea.as u wish..i've deleted da blog add in fb..but i AINT gonna delete my blog..

hope u understand dat..

T_______________T

regret for knowing u.. big mistake in my life..u noe wad??

lol..wad do u mean by dat?? swt

i really think b4 dat one day..

ill be in hosp...

maybe knocked down by a car?? or exreme high fever??or getting some loss memory disease?

lying der..

without any single memories btw u n me..♥

i rather completely 4gt wad we hv been tru b4..

then becoming like wad we are now..

our relationship...

so close..yet we are like strangers..or mybe an enemy to u?? lol

p.s : I DO NOT HATE  U

T_______________T

dat night..i never sleep..

my mind just farking recalling back wad we hv chat just now..swt

damn tired..had a nap for an hour..

7.15AM..followed kor to the bus terminal..

need to drive my car back afterdat..lol

 he asked me..dunno eh hu bo..lol

i said..wad time is ur bus??

7.30AM

lol..wth.. MANA EH HU?!!

jam here jam der..

fetching boon n victor..

sumore their hs so damn near to schools

one at heng ee der one at union..

schooling hour u noe??!

haha..kor damn pek chek..

driving my car like INITIAL D lol..

complaining about how LAM NUO his fren is..

haha..quite funny..but speechless...i just let him bla bla bla..

FUNNIEST thing was..hahahaha... :D

we left victors' hs without victor in da car...

hahahah

we waited for him..around 5 to 6 mins at his carprk..

yea right..he came n put da stuff in da car..

afterdat..he close the car door..

without looking back..

my bro drove away..

after a min..

victor called..

he asked wer r u all..

we look back..

OMG

wer is victor??!!

HAHAAHA..lol..

cant stop laughing thinking bout it.how stupid we are..

like bro like sis..♥

damn stim..xD

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 reached the bus terminal ...

woo...8.10AM nia..haha..

yea..as we predicted..the bus left..

dat person asked them to wait for the next bus..9 plus..

and gv some "extra money" to the bus driver..

yea..so they took the next bus..

too tired...zzz in the car while they having their breakfast.

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reached home at 9.45AM

wanna study IT..but too tired..bay tahan dy..

zzzzz..=p

haiz..didnt even start a single chapter of my IT.

gai dy..2moro is the exam..haiz..wait for resit ba..T.T

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lol..im thinking about these all the time..

from the day HE gt himself a new one..

i bet he really loves her a lot..

i can c the difference btw me n u ..u n her..

yea..i understands wad ur frens had told me..

its kinda rude of him..

but hes just making me realised that we are not made for each other..

yea..u've won his heart completely..

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in some love quotes, it always says..if u love him..u should let him go..

but in the realistic world..it is not lidat...it is not dat easy to do so..

hmm....

looking at d fb news feed..its all bout him..

i would be happy to c everything about him..hows hes doin over der..

but its not.. it hurts me a lot when everthing post up was bout them..

sometimes..i think of..."lol..swt..y dun i just delete him from my fb"

its not dat i hate him or dun wanna have any contact wiv him..

BUT

i really cant stand it... looking at the pics..comments..posts.. wic is not belong to me n him..

i noe my heart feels sth..uneasy..hurt..broken..i knew it..

i think about it over n over again.. should i?? should i?? lol..

nah...the answer is i cant...

i still wanna gt to know all about him thou it hurts..

my friend, i introduced him as B..he told me..

you should be happy that he is going there..(his current college)

you wont bump into him

you will hv the whole isle wiv u

you dun hv to worry seeing him wiv other ppl

i answered.. how i wish i could bumped into him someday..him alone..

cz i miss him so much..

i just don't like to see a girl be so sad for a useless guy..

he thought he just can play a girl like that ar ?

like that eh guy got use mer ?

syok want you,, boh syok dump you,,

sorry to say lar..

 but he really an asshole..

._______.

 now you have to put your head over your heart.

think of what he do to you..

he treat you so cruel..

you think he will treat you good d mer even if you and him got back together

think rasionally and not emotionally..

i know you love him

but.. in this matter.. no use to want him back

it's not wrong to miss him..

still, you need to think of yourself..

if you say you angry aslo he don't care.

if you sad you think he will care mer ?

he also won't care.

so it's up to you to show him back..

that you can live without him and be a better someone one day..

and be happy with someone that truely love you.. love you more then he love you..

._______.

hmmm..another question comes to my mind..

i guess it came accross everyones mind too..

somone who u loves..or someone who loves u more den u do..

ur choice??

26 Dec '09

hmm..

abit nervous..feel kinda uneasy..

thinking dat tonight might not go smooth..

neway..still get excited the whole day *SS*...=p

get ready myself for 2 hours..

waiting the clock to strikes 8pm..

and yeah!! i gt to meet him!

hmmmmmmmmm......

unfortunately..

i gt a msg frm him telling me..

he gt emergency..

hmmmm...

yeah..

i accept it..

*down*

hmmm...=(

he told me..we cn have it next week k..

"i want to stay my promise"

hmmm..okie dokie den..

im waiting for it..=)

 *yee. may. ern. carr.*

 

.19 Dec '09.♥

.7.33pm.

=D

received a msg from him....♥

lol

*smile*

he finally ask me out for vege sushi..haha..
lol..thx ljh.
as u promised me.

hmm..even thou i cant get to celebrate xmas wiv him as i wish..
but..im happy enuf to hav just a simple dinner..
most important.. its wiv him..♥

hope dat xmas pass faster..

so dat i'll get to meet him again..
OR
maybe it is my last chance to c him..

i will appreciate it..♥

.18 dec '09.

At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures.